So apparently doing the homework for class is taking time away from blogging! I thought I would finally sit down and update this with my reflections so far.
Things I have discovered:
1) I’m not very physically tense most of the time. A lot of the meditation instructions involve noticing tension in the body. I don’t seem to have too much. That is a nice thing.
2) I’m not very stressed. In the homework to reflect on the experience of stressful events, I’m having trouble coming up with too many. The ones I do have, though, seem to be mostly generated by making negative predictions about things that haven’t happened yet. That is a very useful thing to realize.
3) My house is not very quiet when it is “quiet.” When I sit to do my homework after my 3 year old goes to bed, I discover that my husband’s quiet activities, the dog snoring, and the cat’s movements, along with the noises of the house itself are really a lot of noise!
4) I have a certain level of resistance to the idea of sitting for 20 to 40 minutes in silence. I often sit down with reluctance at first, although I often really enjoy the practice when I do it.
5) When my mind wanders, it often goes to work or to the future (or to the future at work).
6) I really want to use my bulldog as a meditation anchor.
I’m really enjoying the course and the practice overall. I continue to think that I had done more, between my group and cognitive therapy training and my prior meditation practice, to prepare for this than I had given myself credit for. I really am not starting at the starting line the way I expected.
I’ll try to do better updating this in the coming weeks!